@Hanz: Thanks honey! We will definitely get through this. I didn’t even realize I’m technically starting fresh from the 1st of the month, but now I’m seeing it as a clean slate haha. Ugh, I knoow. Milk is DISGUSTING. I do not understand how anybody can drink it voluntarily, especially on its own ughhh. =///
@Ana’s Girl: Yay I’ve missed you also, and I’m so glad you’re back to blogging full time yourself! The yogurt diet seems to be going well so far, with the added excuse that it’s weight-loss-surgeon approved so huzzah! And I’ve found it easier to stick to than I thought I would so far =]
@pokerface: Thanks dude! I miss our random chats before you went to Uni and I dropped off the face of the earth haha. I’m looking forward to keeping up with your blog, and you’re right! I can do this. We can both do this!! We’re awesome, amazing people, and all it takes is a little motivation and will power =]
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Wednesday, 2 June 2010
Monday, 4 January 2010
And Today's Another Day
Didn't do too bad caloriewise today. May have gone over my limit again, but if I did it's only super minor =]
I don't have all that much to write about tonight - shock horror, I know that's not like me at all, right?! - but I think it's primarily because I'm so tired. If you've been reading my blog for a while you'll know I'm nearly always tired, even when I'm not restricting particularly hard (or, even the times when I was eating normally), and I very rarely sleep "well". So I'm not surprised but it's still frustrating as hell to be checking your clock until nearly 4 in the morning waiting to fall asleep. I *should* go to the doctor, but even when I tried prescription sleeping pills they did nothing but make me feel hungover in the morning.
I should also probably go to the doctor for some depression meds, but I'm one of those people who refuses to go see a medical professional until I absolutely have to. I like to live by the "if I ignore it long enough, it'll go away" approach. Which yes, I realize is wrong. I think part of it is that, I feel self conscious about going to the doctor and having to explain how I feel and WHY I feel the way I do. I want to say that the way I feel is just "situational" depression, and everything will be better when I find a job (or when I'm skinny, or when I have a boyfriend, or when I'm rich and famous, et al.) But even as I say it, I know I'm kidding myself. I've been depressed to one degree or another since I was a child, forchrissakes. But, I can't be bothered.
Also, it's like admitting I have a problem. Wheras not having to take medication means I'm not "clinically" depressed. I'm undiagnosed, so it doesn't count. I Realize I sound like an idiot, but I don't really care.
There I go rambling, right after I say I have nothing to talk about =] At least I'm consistent!
Anyway, work today was... more of the same. Irritating and depressing. And something malfunctioned with my phone so as soon as I hung up a call another one came RIGHT through - we're talking, I haven't even let go of the receiver yet - four times in a row. I hadn't even finished dealing with the previous ones before I was getting more.
And then of course my manager was all "So, how're you finding it so far?" And I kind of sighed and fought the urge to roll my eyes with deep sarcasm. And I said I don't like taking calls. Which he already knows. But that so far the kinds of calls I've been taking have been easy ones, which I more or less know the answers to. I haven't had anybody shout at me yet or ask me shit I haven't heard of at ALL - I mean I don't know much but at least the things I've been getting asked I've heard of in passing, if that makes sense.
But that said, I still detest it. I would rather pull the covers over my head and bawl into my pillow every morning instead of going into work. And I find myself finding reasons to log my phone out of the queue to take calls. Today it was "Oh I can't find any record of taking that fraud test on my records. I'll do it again now just to be sure!"
Sigh.
My best friend S sent me through a link on our intranet to apply for a job in her building. Not in her team specifically, and it doesn't sound like the typical entry-level admin job I was doing before either, it seems to have more responsabilities. And the other bonus is the pay - it says minimum is £14,000 and max is around £17,800 (I'm currently on 16K and it would be a nightmare and a half to have to go back to a job that only pays minimum wage, which is around 10 grand or something ridiculous like that). So anyway, I was thinking of applying, since it's internal it links through to our HR accounts and it looks like there's no need to add in a CV/Resume or actual application, it just sends your records through to the people who are hiring for the position. But I also noticed that before it sends through to the other area for perusal, it is first sent to your manager to "approve."
Right, because when you hate your job so much you want to kill yourself half the time, and your boss doesn't care, you of course want to ask his fucking permission to apply for another job. Which is bullshit, but I don't care, I think I'll send it anyway. Worst case scenario they say no and my manager actually recognizes that I have no intention to stay where I am.
Soo, that's that.
The bonus is that I've got tomorrow off work. My manager was figuring out my hours (our hours are on a 4-week "month" and in that month we have to work our 140 hours that we're contracted to. Which means that instead of working 7 hours every day we have a little flexibility to work 6 and 8 or other variations, as long as we're on target at the end of the "month." When I started on the call centre, I was still clocking in down in my old team, but then moved up to this one and nobody had bothered to add the figures together yet, so I had no idea where I stood and my manager was under the impression that I was down by 23 hours. Pfft) and it turned out I had worked an extra 4 and a half hours. So, I booked the day off tomorrow to "use" those hours up. I have to work an extra two and a half to make up the rest of the day, but fuck, it's better than having to go in tomorrow right?
So tomorrow is a 500 calorie day I do believe. And I'm just generally going to try to stay as low as I can. The downside is that my aunt is home and although she's trying to be more sensible about her eating (not bingeing on sugary food or snacking throughout the day and night) she has a tendency to try and watch what I'm eating. Even in the same breath as telling me I need to lose weight and I'm fat. Which makes complete sense. But with 500 I've got room to play around.
SO, just one comment reply for now, that I'm aware of. If I missed something, smack me upside the head k?
Phantasmagorical Delusions: I tried your suggestion and microwaved the apples-cinnamon-splenda. Holy crap, it was beyond amazing. I felt like I should be feeling guilty and horrible and bingey but it totally wasn't which was awesommmme. I think that is going to become a staple in my diet =] And I might add it to my foodblog as a yummy tip because, wow everyone needs to try it!
Haha as to the weather, since I grew up in Canada, the notion of a -50 degree windchill is not at all alien to me - yet when it drops to 0 here I'm the first to start bitching and complaining about how cold I am. It makes no sense, but I can't help it haha. I could NEVER live somewhere where it was cold all the time, I'm just not built for it (half the time I'm shivering under a sweater in summer when the rest of my family is sweltering), but I couldn't live anywhere that had NO snow at all either. I'm just difficult to please lol.
Thanks for your comments on my other blog too, and I'm glad you like both of them =] It motivates me a little more to know someone is reading the foodblog and liking what I'm doing, so I'm more likely to add some more to it (the book is sitting in front of me as I type but I can't find the will or energy to type out more recipes just now haha.)
Anyway, I'm looking forward to reading more of your blog, past and future. All the best doll, if you ever want to talk just drop me a comment =]
Also, my other readers: you should check out her blog. It's real, it's a good read, and I find it genuinely interesting as well. And she writes about more than JUST ED/food issues, which is the type of blog I like to read... It's more.. substantial, y'know? I find them more interesting anyway!
I don't have all that much to write about tonight - shock horror, I know that's not like me at all, right?! - but I think it's primarily because I'm so tired. If you've been reading my blog for a while you'll know I'm nearly always tired, even when I'm not restricting particularly hard (or, even the times when I was eating normally), and I very rarely sleep "well". So I'm not surprised but it's still frustrating as hell to be checking your clock until nearly 4 in the morning waiting to fall asleep. I *should* go to the doctor, but even when I tried prescription sleeping pills they did nothing but make me feel hungover in the morning.
I should also probably go to the doctor for some depression meds, but I'm one of those people who refuses to go see a medical professional until I absolutely have to. I like to live by the "if I ignore it long enough, it'll go away" approach. Which yes, I realize is wrong. I think part of it is that, I feel self conscious about going to the doctor and having to explain how I feel and WHY I feel the way I do. I want to say that the way I feel is just "situational" depression, and everything will be better when I find a job (or when I'm skinny, or when I have a boyfriend, or when I'm rich and famous, et al.) But even as I say it, I know I'm kidding myself. I've been depressed to one degree or another since I was a child, forchrissakes. But, I can't be bothered.
Also, it's like admitting I have a problem. Wheras not having to take medication means I'm not "clinically" depressed. I'm undiagnosed, so it doesn't count. I Realize I sound like an idiot, but I don't really care.
There I go rambling, right after I say I have nothing to talk about =] At least I'm consistent!
Anyway, work today was... more of the same. Irritating and depressing. And something malfunctioned with my phone so as soon as I hung up a call another one came RIGHT through - we're talking, I haven't even let go of the receiver yet - four times in a row. I hadn't even finished dealing with the previous ones before I was getting more.
And then of course my manager was all "So, how're you finding it so far?" And I kind of sighed and fought the urge to roll my eyes with deep sarcasm. And I said I don't like taking calls. Which he already knows. But that so far the kinds of calls I've been taking have been easy ones, which I more or less know the answers to. I haven't had anybody shout at me yet or ask me shit I haven't heard of at ALL - I mean I don't know much but at least the things I've been getting asked I've heard of in passing, if that makes sense.
But that said, I still detest it. I would rather pull the covers over my head and bawl into my pillow every morning instead of going into work. And I find myself finding reasons to log my phone out of the queue to take calls. Today it was "Oh I can't find any record of taking that fraud test on my records. I'll do it again now just to be sure!"
Sigh.
My best friend S sent me through a link on our intranet to apply for a job in her building. Not in her team specifically, and it doesn't sound like the typical entry-level admin job I was doing before either, it seems to have more responsabilities. And the other bonus is the pay - it says minimum is £14,000 and max is around £17,800 (I'm currently on 16K and it would be a nightmare and a half to have to go back to a job that only pays minimum wage, which is around 10 grand or something ridiculous like that). So anyway, I was thinking of applying, since it's internal it links through to our HR accounts and it looks like there's no need to add in a CV/Resume or actual application, it just sends your records through to the people who are hiring for the position. But I also noticed that before it sends through to the other area for perusal, it is first sent to your manager to "approve."
Right, because when you hate your job so much you want to kill yourself half the time, and your boss doesn't care, you of course want to ask his fucking permission to apply for another job. Which is bullshit, but I don't care, I think I'll send it anyway. Worst case scenario they say no and my manager actually recognizes that I have no intention to stay where I am.
Soo, that's that.
The bonus is that I've got tomorrow off work. My manager was figuring out my hours (our hours are on a 4-week "month" and in that month we have to work our 140 hours that we're contracted to. Which means that instead of working 7 hours every day we have a little flexibility to work 6 and 8 or other variations, as long as we're on target at the end of the "month." When I started on the call centre, I was still clocking in down in my old team, but then moved up to this one and nobody had bothered to add the figures together yet, so I had no idea where I stood and my manager was under the impression that I was down by 23 hours. Pfft) and it turned out I had worked an extra 4 and a half hours. So, I booked the day off tomorrow to "use" those hours up. I have to work an extra two and a half to make up the rest of the day, but fuck, it's better than having to go in tomorrow right?
So tomorrow is a 500 calorie day I do believe. And I'm just generally going to try to stay as low as I can. The downside is that my aunt is home and although she's trying to be more sensible about her eating (not bingeing on sugary food or snacking throughout the day and night) she has a tendency to try and watch what I'm eating. Even in the same breath as telling me I need to lose weight and I'm fat. Which makes complete sense. But with 500 I've got room to play around.
SO, just one comment reply for now, that I'm aware of. If I missed something, smack me upside the head k?
Phantasmagorical Delusions: I tried your suggestion and microwaved the apples-cinnamon-splenda. Holy crap, it was beyond amazing. I felt like I should be feeling guilty and horrible and bingey but it totally wasn't which was awesommmme. I think that is going to become a staple in my diet =] And I might add it to my foodblog as a yummy tip because, wow everyone needs to try it!
Haha as to the weather, since I grew up in Canada, the notion of a -50 degree windchill is not at all alien to me - yet when it drops to 0 here I'm the first to start bitching and complaining about how cold I am. It makes no sense, but I can't help it haha. I could NEVER live somewhere where it was cold all the time, I'm just not built for it (half the time I'm shivering under a sweater in summer when the rest of my family is sweltering), but I couldn't live anywhere that had NO snow at all either. I'm just difficult to please lol.
Thanks for your comments on my other blog too, and I'm glad you like both of them =] It motivates me a little more to know someone is reading the foodblog and liking what I'm doing, so I'm more likely to add some more to it (the book is sitting in front of me as I type but I can't find the will or energy to type out more recipes just now haha.)
Anyway, I'm looking forward to reading more of your blog, past and future. All the best doll, if you ever want to talk just drop me a comment =]
Also, my other readers: you should check out her blog. It's real, it's a good read, and I find it genuinely interesting as well. And she writes about more than JUST ED/food issues, which is the type of blog I like to read... It's more.. substantial, y'know? I find them more interesting anyway!
Commentorizing / Update
Phantasmagorical Delusion: (Holy crap I love your username!) I love them too =] So tasty and sweet and like you said, totally guilt-free. I haven’t had them in ages though since I kept forgetting to buy Splenda (I don’t use sugar in anything else at home). I’ve never tried them microwaved though! I didn’t bring the apple to work this morning since I was running late and it was icy as hell outside, so I might try it for dessert when I get home tonight. I’m looking forward to trying it now lol.. Being positive is hella hard, but I keep telling myself that negativity isn’t going to get me anywhere faster so I might as well try to be a little bit more upbeat. But then, pretending to be happier and more upbeat than I am sometimes bites me in the ass (I’m pretty sure my new manager thinks I love it here, since I’m not bitching all the time and am trying to be nice instead of complaining about how miserable I am every 5 minutes)… Also, I’ve followed your blog now =]
Dot: Yay, you sorted out your comments box <3 I’ll read your blog properly tonight. The background isn’t that bad now either, so ignore my bitching before, lol. I can read it fine today for some reason, must’ve been tired eyes yesterday. Haha, Genki <3 I’m trying anyway! The thumb is mostly ok now thanks, although it feels like I have reptile scales on it instead of my usually fairly-soft skin ^.^
Hanz: That’s a really good idea. Actually, I told myself ages ago that I was going to do just that, save money that otherwise would have been spent on bingeing or food, but never got around to it (I’m really bad for planning and never following through =/). But I think I might make a point of starting putting the money aside. Next time my aunts ask if I want to order pizza, I’ll put £15 aside lol.
Ana’s Girl: I agree, I’m the same way. I always comment on blogs and then either forget I’ve commented or just forget to check back to see if there are replies. I do it all the time lol.
Also, I’ve done so well today so far. It’s 2:15 in the afternoon and I’ve had 0 calories. I forgot my apple this morning because I was running late and didn’t get a chance to enter the kitchen before I left for work. Then figured I might as well skip the 10kcal soup for lunch. I’m just having one of those days where I’m not in the MOOD for food. Thank god, I need a no/little food day!
So tiredddd, but I need to get back to work so I’ll write more later when I’m at home =]
Dot: Yay, you sorted out your comments box <3 I’ll read your blog properly tonight. The background isn’t that bad now either, so ignore my bitching before, lol. I can read it fine today for some reason, must’ve been tired eyes yesterday. Haha, Genki <3 I’m trying anyway! The thumb is mostly ok now thanks, although it feels like I have reptile scales on it instead of my usually fairly-soft skin ^.^
Hanz: That’s a really good idea. Actually, I told myself ages ago that I was going to do just that, save money that otherwise would have been spent on bingeing or food, but never got around to it (I’m really bad for planning and never following through =/). But I think I might make a point of starting putting the money aside. Next time my aunts ask if I want to order pizza, I’ll put £15 aside lol.
Ana’s Girl: I agree, I’m the same way. I always comment on blogs and then either forget I’ve commented or just forget to check back to see if there are replies. I do it all the time lol.
Also, I’ve done so well today so far. It’s 2:15 in the afternoon and I’ve had 0 calories. I forgot my apple this morning because I was running late and didn’t get a chance to enter the kitchen before I left for work. Then figured I might as well skip the 10kcal soup for lunch. I’m just having one of those days where I’m not in the MOOD for food. Thank god, I need a no/little food day!
So tiredddd, but I need to get back to work so I’ll write more later when I’m at home =]
Sunday, 3 January 2010
DOT!
Girl, I love your new blog layout but I can't really read the light-pink-on-more-shades-of-pink =/ And your comments box isn't loading for some reason. Click on Post A Comment, and nothing happens. Maybe it's just me the page isn't loading properly for, but thought I would tell you! <3 xxx
Wednesday, 30 December 2009
Comments!
Just a short, super quick post while I’m sitting at work waiting for calls and for my manager to announce they’re letting people go early today. My rant will come, oh yes it will. But the short version of the story is that I had to work til my usual time yesterday, while my manager took off at 2. Grr.
Anyway, I wanted to reply to a couple recent comments. I was going to do ALL of the comments I got lately but I’ve replied to some over on your blogs, and it seems like a lot of effort to go through now. So, if I haven’t already replied to your comments, I’ll do so in my own comments section k?
I want to get back to replying to comments here, to make sure y’all see them, so here’s the most recent edition =]
Ana’s Girl: Yeah, the thing is I’m having trouble coming up with rewards lol. There are so many things I want but I don’t want to OVERspend, so I think I’m going to have to set aside money specifically for decent rewards, or else I’ll just wind up spending it on something stupid I don’t need haha. I’m starting the new year off with ABC so Day 1 will be Friday Jan 1st =] You’re more than welcome to join me! I’m actually really looking forward to having a strict plan to follow again, I wish the new year would just hurry up and get here already.
Dot: Yay, I’m so glad you’re back Dot! I’ve missed your blog! I am really seriously excited about studying Japanese, and the year’s study over there seems too good to be true. I wish I could do it now but there’s not enough time to get everything together, but I’m really looking forward to it. I just need to settle on a course now. There’s Japanese Studies on its own but then also dual majors that I *might* look into, since another degree would give me an extra step up in Careersville. <3
Anyway, I wanted to reply to a couple recent comments. I was going to do ALL of the comments I got lately but I’ve replied to some over on your blogs, and it seems like a lot of effort to go through now. So, if I haven’t already replied to your comments, I’ll do so in my own comments section k?
I want to get back to replying to comments here, to make sure y’all see them, so here’s the most recent edition =]
Ana’s Girl: Yeah, the thing is I’m having trouble coming up with rewards lol. There are so many things I want but I don’t want to OVERspend, so I think I’m going to have to set aside money specifically for decent rewards, or else I’ll just wind up spending it on something stupid I don’t need haha. I’m starting the new year off with ABC so Day 1 will be Friday Jan 1st =] You’re more than welcome to join me! I’m actually really looking forward to having a strict plan to follow again, I wish the new year would just hurry up and get here already.
Dot: Yay, I’m so glad you’re back Dot! I’ve missed your blog! I am really seriously excited about studying Japanese, and the year’s study over there seems too good to be true. I wish I could do it now but there’s not enough time to get everything together, but I’m really looking forward to it. I just need to settle on a course now. There’s Japanese Studies on its own but then also dual majors that I *might* look into, since another degree would give me an extra step up in Careersville. <3
Friday, 21 August 2009
Oh GOD Make it stop
Seriously, my abdomen/general stomach area hurts so much right now. What is going on? I feel like my insides are trying to explode out.
Also, to address a comment from Pi (HI by the way =]), I don't *think* it's PMS related. Although I never know anymore.
Too much info warning =]
See, I don't get periods. It's not ED-related or anything, it's just because of the birth control pill I'm on (I mean, as of today I haven't had sex in NINETEEN MONTHS, I shit you not, but I still take the pill a: just in case and b: no periods!). But, I think I still get the bloating and the random water weight gain and the hormonal emotional basketcaseism.
The thing is, because I haven't had a period since October 2006 (and I use the term period in that instance VERY loosely), I have no idea when my usual cycle would be. Over the past three years I've completely lost track, even though my cycle used to be exactly 4 weeks, like clockwork. So, emotional craziness and bloating and weight gain is entirely random, and I never quite know if it's due to my cycle or just because I'm a psycho.
This pain isn't cramps though. Honestly, and this is gross, but I think it's mostly down to constipation and severe wind all up in there and grumbling around. I wish I could just poke myself with a pin and deflate (and then be skinny and gorgeous forever, Amen).
I'm rambling as usual =]
Bleh, I feel like shit. It's abating VERY slightly right now but about an hour or so ago it felt like I was dying. Like that scene from Alien when the thing RIPS out of the dude's stomach. That's me, only about ten minutes earlier.
Food wise it's gone okay. I'm being strong strong strong! One of the temps in my team is leaving on Monday to go work in our call centre in a permanent position, and since it's her last day she brought in some nibbles (read: sweet things) and all I had was a mini-muffin and some manner of tiny cake thing. Total couldn't be more than 200 calories, if that. Yay!
It helps that my bloatey horribleness is making me wary of consuming anything at all for fear of making it worse. AND, if it keeps up (or, to be fair, even if it doesn't) I have an excuse to shower, straighten my hair, and go to bed without having to eat anything when I get home, even if my aunt is in foodnazi mode =]
Seven days til I go to Canada too, I'm starting to get excited now ^-^
Also, to address a comment from Pi (HI by the way =]), I don't *think* it's PMS related. Although I never know anymore.
Too much info warning =]
See, I don't get periods. It's not ED-related or anything, it's just because of the birth control pill I'm on (I mean, as of today I haven't had sex in NINETEEN MONTHS, I shit you not, but I still take the pill a: just in case and b: no periods!). But, I think I still get the bloating and the random water weight gain and the hormonal emotional basketcaseism.
The thing is, because I haven't had a period since October 2006 (and I use the term period in that instance VERY loosely), I have no idea when my usual cycle would be. Over the past three years I've completely lost track, even though my cycle used to be exactly 4 weeks, like clockwork. So, emotional craziness and bloating and weight gain is entirely random, and I never quite know if it's due to my cycle or just because I'm a psycho.
This pain isn't cramps though. Honestly, and this is gross, but I think it's mostly down to constipation and severe wind all up in there and grumbling around. I wish I could just poke myself with a pin and deflate (and then be skinny and gorgeous forever, Amen).
I'm rambling as usual =]
Bleh, I feel like shit. It's abating VERY slightly right now but about an hour or so ago it felt like I was dying. Like that scene from Alien when the thing RIPS out of the dude's stomach. That's me, only about ten minutes earlier.
Food wise it's gone okay. I'm being strong strong strong! One of the temps in my team is leaving on Monday to go work in our call centre in a permanent position, and since it's her last day she brought in some nibbles (read: sweet things) and all I had was a mini-muffin and some manner of tiny cake thing. Total couldn't be more than 200 calories, if that. Yay!
It helps that my bloatey horribleness is making me wary of consuming anything at all for fear of making it worse. AND, if it keeps up (or, to be fair, even if it doesn't) I have an excuse to shower, straighten my hair, and go to bed without having to eat anything when I get home, even if my aunt is in foodnazi mode =]
Seven days til I go to Canada too, I'm starting to get excited now ^-^
Wednesday, 19 August 2009
Comments!
Okay, I THINK I've managed to reply to all of my comments, and as usual they're replies in my own comments instead of spamming up your comment sections (except you, pokerface, but you've already seen my reply so whatever! Incidentally, you guys need to go read his blog if you haven't already. This guy rocks out loud, he's adorable and his blog is written in such a way that you just want to KEEP READING.)
Anyway that's just my heads-up so you know to look for comments. If you would PREFER that I reply to your comments on your own blog, let me know and I'll oblige though!
Anyway that's just my heads-up so you know to look for comments. If you would PREFER that I reply to your comments on your own blog, let me know and I'll oblige though!
Wednesday, 12 August 2009
Replies To Comments
It's been so long that instead of going through my comments and replying there, I'm going to reply here to make sure y'all see it haha. Also, I've seen others using this format and I think I like it.
So, here goes. Sorry if it's confusing, I'm replying to everyone's comments at once so I hope you remember what you said ^.^
EDIT: OH MY GOD THERE ARE SO MANY. Sorry. Just so you know I'm replying in reverse order, in paragraph-form. I hope that helps keep things straight, this is turning into a mess lol. This is what I get for neglecting comments for two weeks =/
@xthinforever: My aunt is doing well, thanks! She's started driving already, wheras J had to take a good few weeks off. She's healing a lot better than J did so far. Still bad news on the fluorescents, although they're off today thank fuck!
Haha dude, I have such a high libido, it's ridiculous. But I haven't gotten any in over a year and a half >.<
Luckily my stress over my aunt at the hospital was unfounded. It turns out her fever is just from her generic all-the-time night-sweats so it was nothing to be concerned about. But, I tend to stress out over absolutely nothing, it's not a good thing.
Ugh starting a day off immediately being pissed off is not good. My whole day sucked after that.
@Dot: Haha yeah the "more rest" never happened. Migraines at work at just making my sleeping situation even worse right now.
Haha if he calls. Also, he's just moved BACK to Australia so I'm kinda doubting that he'll be around anytime soon =/
Thanks hun, luckily my aunt is doing okay. But unfortunately the weight hasn't dropped off like I'd hoped. When I stress out my weight loss slows for some retarded reason, and like I said in my previous post I upped my calorie intake a little, which meant I basically just stayed the same. Damnit. It'll be gone soon though! =]
Ooh, I will email you the link as soon as I finish with this =]
Measurements are definitely coming soon! Once I find my measuring tape! Now is probably a good time to post it too because right now I'm pretty high so it'll be a good starting-point to measure my progress against.
FOAM CUPS ARE MADE OF FAIL. Seriously, that one little thing made me not even want to go out, it was so horrible. I DEFINITELY need a shopping spree, but I've been putting it off until I go to Canada. Only, now it's looking like I'll have barely lost anything so I'm not convinced it's worth buying a load of clothes there that will (hopefully) be too big for me in a couple of months. Although I'll probably buy something like a really nice pair of jeans in a couple sized smaller and make it my goal to fit into them by the time I go to Cancun ^.^ Haha girl, I love the rain too, just not when it's ALL THE TIME. We literally just had about 3 days where it was really nice and sunny out, and now it's back to rain. So seriously, I get 3 days of summer haha. And then people wonder why I'm so god damn pale! (although I LIKE being pale and people don't get that).
I just realized that I already commented back to that last one Dot, sorry haha. YOU GET MOAR.
@Samantha: Haha that's so random. Clearly, I have some kind of intense psychic ability... to inflict others with my badness lol.
@Ana's Girl: The Aussie accent was totally hot. I mean, I live in England so there are accents all over the place, but because I live in Yorkshire a lot of people have really broad, horrible, hobo-sounding acents and it is not goooood =///
Being on the phone suuucks. Luckily I've only got one more Phone day before I go to Canada for two weeks. So, next Thursday, if you call a pension company in the UK and get a girl with an American-sounding accent, it's probably me ;]
Haha thanks about the writing dealie... When I first wrote it I loved it but now I'm not so sure, it seems a little slow and all-over-theplace. We'll see ^.^
@skinnybysiness: Thanks for the comment on my writing ^.^ Hopefully I'll get some time to actually work on it...
@Carmen: Honestly, I think you're right. I tend to get caught up in descriptions and character-introspection that I can tend to forget to "keep the ball rolling" haha. Definitely something I'll need to work at.
@sadhana: Well, if you get a chance to read it let me know what you think =] I'm always looking for constructive criticism. And, as to my blogs, this is probably the best one to follow. Champagne Petals is kind of a side-project where I'm trying to compile a compendium of ED-Friendly cooking and recipes and foods. It's slow-going right now but when I get the time I've got a ton to add on to it.
@SophiaRuins: Luckily the "family meals" thing isn't being enforced now. My aunt said to J that I'll be "doing my own thing" with my diet and if we do have a group meal it'll only be every once in a while. That's something I can live with, more than "every day we take turns." Eff that.
WOW THAT WAS LONG.
I also had two comments from a new follower who told me she was reading my blog from the start. HI TO YOU! Sorry I didn't reply to your comments here, because I'm an idiot I approved the comments before I checked where they were at and now I can't find the posts to reply. I'm going to have a look and see if I can find them now though haha.
<3
So, here goes. Sorry if it's confusing, I'm replying to everyone's comments at once so I hope you remember what you said ^.^
EDIT: OH MY GOD THERE ARE SO MANY. Sorry. Just so you know I'm replying in reverse order, in paragraph-form. I hope that helps keep things straight, this is turning into a mess lol. This is what I get for neglecting comments for two weeks =/
@xthinforever: My aunt is doing well, thanks! She's started driving already, wheras J had to take a good few weeks off. She's healing a lot better than J did so far. Still bad news on the fluorescents, although they're off today thank fuck!
Haha dude, I have such a high libido, it's ridiculous. But I haven't gotten any in over a year and a half >.<
Luckily my stress over my aunt at the hospital was unfounded. It turns out her fever is just from her generic all-the-time night-sweats so it was nothing to be concerned about. But, I tend to stress out over absolutely nothing, it's not a good thing.
Ugh starting a day off immediately being pissed off is not good. My whole day sucked after that.
@Dot: Haha yeah the "more rest" never happened. Migraines at work at just making my sleeping situation even worse right now.
Haha if he calls. Also, he's just moved BACK to Australia so I'm kinda doubting that he'll be around anytime soon =/
Thanks hun, luckily my aunt is doing okay. But unfortunately the weight hasn't dropped off like I'd hoped. When I stress out my weight loss slows for some retarded reason, and like I said in my previous post I upped my calorie intake a little, which meant I basically just stayed the same. Damnit. It'll be gone soon though! =]
Ooh, I will email you the link as soon as I finish with this =]
Measurements are definitely coming soon! Once I find my measuring tape! Now is probably a good time to post it too because right now I'm pretty high so it'll be a good starting-point to measure my progress against.
FOAM CUPS ARE MADE OF FAIL. Seriously, that one little thing made me not even want to go out, it was so horrible. I DEFINITELY need a shopping spree, but I've been putting it off until I go to Canada. Only, now it's looking like I'll have barely lost anything so I'm not convinced it's worth buying a load of clothes there that will (hopefully) be too big for me in a couple of months. Although I'll probably buy something like a really nice pair of jeans in a couple sized smaller and make it my goal to fit into them by the time I go to Cancun ^.^ Haha girl, I love the rain too, just not when it's ALL THE TIME. We literally just had about 3 days where it was really nice and sunny out, and now it's back to rain. So seriously, I get 3 days of summer haha. And then people wonder why I'm so god damn pale! (although I LIKE being pale and people don't get that).
I just realized that I already commented back to that last one Dot, sorry haha. YOU GET MOAR.
@Samantha: Haha that's so random. Clearly, I have some kind of intense psychic ability... to inflict others with my badness lol.
@Ana's Girl: The Aussie accent was totally hot. I mean, I live in England so there are accents all over the place, but because I live in Yorkshire a lot of people have really broad, horrible, hobo-sounding acents and it is not goooood =///
Being on the phone suuucks. Luckily I've only got one more Phone day before I go to Canada for two weeks. So, next Thursday, if you call a pension company in the UK and get a girl with an American-sounding accent, it's probably me ;]
Haha thanks about the writing dealie... When I first wrote it I loved it but now I'm not so sure, it seems a little slow and all-over-theplace. We'll see ^.^
@skinnybysiness: Thanks for the comment on my writing ^.^ Hopefully I'll get some time to actually work on it...
@Carmen: Honestly, I think you're right. I tend to get caught up in descriptions and character-introspection that I can tend to forget to "keep the ball rolling" haha. Definitely something I'll need to work at.
@sadhana: Well, if you get a chance to read it let me know what you think =] I'm always looking for constructive criticism. And, as to my blogs, this is probably the best one to follow. Champagne Petals is kind of a side-project where I'm trying to compile a compendium of ED-Friendly cooking and recipes and foods. It's slow-going right now but when I get the time I've got a ton to add on to it.
@SophiaRuins: Luckily the "family meals" thing isn't being enforced now. My aunt said to J that I'll be "doing my own thing" with my diet and if we do have a group meal it'll only be every once in a while. That's something I can live with, more than "every day we take turns." Eff that.
WOW THAT WAS LONG.
I also had two comments from a new follower who told me she was reading my blog from the start. HI TO YOU! Sorry I didn't reply to your comments here, because I'm an idiot I approved the comments before I checked where they were at and now I can't find the posts to reply. I'm going to have a look and see if I can find them now though haha.
<3
Tuesday, 9 June 2009
Okay, so I lied
One more post today.
Just to complain that Blogger needs to have a more user-friendly interface when it comes to viewing comments. I'm trying to find one specific comment that led me to somebody's blog, and from the Dashboard I can't for the life of me remember which blog it was to begin with, so I'm having to load up every single post in its own window (work's computer's do not have tabbed browsing) to skim through the comments.
And jesus, girls, I write a LOT.
I also noticed I say the word "digress/ing" at least twice in every other post. Repetition is bad. Find some synonyms, Vee!
Ehehehehehe.
Random giggle.
There's this guy that works up the office from me. I've never spoken to him in my life or anything. But now when I see him I giggle. It's all because one of the men in my team pointed out that he looks like Mr Tumnis from The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, And The Wardrobe (Holy long title, Batman!) (...I also use a lot of parentheses) and he walks with a weird gait that makes him look like he's walking on goat legs. Disappointingly today though, he shaved his weird jawline-following-almost-a-beard-thing so he looks less Fawn-ey than usual.
Still, giggle inducing!
Fuck, I keep reading things online and I'm so behind on my work and I'm leaving in an hour and a half. I need to kick myself in the ass. Although, an hour and a half is probably ample time to get the 4 pieces of work out that are still on my desk to do. Hmm. Whatever, I need to stop killing time.
Although... the whole reason I opened this to begin with is because of work haha. I was just finishing up a letter and I need to include with it a booklet that gives details of some bonus rates (I work in pensions, it's all very boring) and when I went to search for it in my work email, the fucking email client froze. So I thought, while I wait for it to find what I want, I'll post a little blog entry. But before I did that I was looking through my comments. And now I'm rambling again because I rock out loud. And my email client is STILL frozen, because the systems in this place are fuckin' fantastic.
Bleh, I guess this means I have to restart. Which will take around 12 minutes. Huzzah.
I'm tired, I just want to go home at this point. Tummy is feeling empty but no hunger pains or growliness. Instead of being happy about this I am now at the point of craving the feeling of hunger. Bring it!
Vee xox
Just to complain that Blogger needs to have a more user-friendly interface when it comes to viewing comments. I'm trying to find one specific comment that led me to somebody's blog, and from the Dashboard I can't for the life of me remember which blog it was to begin with, so I'm having to load up every single post in its own window (work's computer's do not have tabbed browsing) to skim through the comments.
And jesus, girls, I write a LOT.
I also noticed I say the word "digress/ing" at least twice in every other post. Repetition is bad. Find some synonyms, Vee!
Ehehehehehe.
Random giggle.
There's this guy that works up the office from me. I've never spoken to him in my life or anything. But now when I see him I giggle. It's all because one of the men in my team pointed out that he looks like Mr Tumnis from The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, And The Wardrobe (Holy long title, Batman!) (...I also use a lot of parentheses) and he walks with a weird gait that makes him look like he's walking on goat legs. Disappointingly today though, he shaved his weird jawline-following-almost-a-beard-thing so he looks less Fawn-ey than usual.
Still, giggle inducing!
Fuck, I keep reading things online and I'm so behind on my work and I'm leaving in an hour and a half. I need to kick myself in the ass. Although, an hour and a half is probably ample time to get the 4 pieces of work out that are still on my desk to do. Hmm. Whatever, I need to stop killing time.
Although... the whole reason I opened this to begin with is because of work haha. I was just finishing up a letter and I need to include with it a booklet that gives details of some bonus rates (I work in pensions, it's all very boring) and when I went to search for it in my work email, the fucking email client froze. So I thought, while I wait for it to find what I want, I'll post a little blog entry. But before I did that I was looking through my comments. And now I'm rambling again because I rock out loud. And my email client is STILL frozen, because the systems in this place are fuckin' fantastic.
Bleh, I guess this means I have to restart. Which will take around 12 minutes. Huzzah.
I'm tired, I just want to go home at this point. Tummy is feeling empty but no hunger pains or growliness. Instead of being happy about this I am now at the point of craving the feeling of hunger. Bring it!
Vee xox
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